Thursday, July 26, 2007

NAKED THURSDAY!!!

HAPPY NAKED THURSDAY!!!!!!



Today is a better day

I can tell that today is going to be a better day. Why you may ask? Because of the way I feel. Yesterday I was stressed and had a sense of hopelessness. I don't know what the future holds for me but I know that eventually I will get through it. I have a family that even though at times gives me a hard time for my actions, I know they want me to succeed and they will do anything to help support me. My Friends..holy crap. I love them all. When I told them about my job situation they went and started to call contacts and looked for job openings for me. All of them are really helping me out. I can not express how much you guys mean to me. They helped me the last time I was looking for a job also. You know who your friends are by the little things they do for you..and I hope they know that I would lay down my life for each and every one of them. That is how loyal I am to them. This includes my girlfriend. She has supported me and been there for me just like all my other friends.

As for other things going on, I am just going with the flow. I have to do what I have to do. I have decided that I can not be too picky about the type of jobs that I get offered. I know that eventually I will find the right job for me. I just do not know what that is yet. I am still going to get my cert for PM so that should help. I have to focus on what I want to do in my life. First I have to get rid of my excess stuff that I do not need and get money for that. I have to try and horde my money until something comes up.

It looks like my weekends will be full of traveling and what not. I guess this is something that I wanted to do but never had a reason to do them. Now, with the girl, she has all these things going on, trips to SF and LV and other things. I guess this is what Life is all about. Going out. Seeing the sites. Having fun. It would be great if I had a job to fall back on. But I know, God willing, that something will come up.

I guess I wanted to write stuff that doesn't involve me looking for a job, but I know that this issue is prevalent in my life at the moment. This is the obstacle that I have to climb. One of many put forth in my life. I have climbed bigger hills with much more at stake. I'll get through it because that is who I am. PAIN IS LIFE....So Be it.

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

Not Sure What 2 Do

A little over 2 more weeks here at my current job before I am let loose to run a mock in the streets of LA. But what am I going to do? I really do not know. I have friends who are helping me search for jobs and I love the help. But lets face it. My skill sets arent that impressive and the lack of jobs with my skills sets are lacking. I am getting frustrated and scared. I have been down this road before but I really do not want to go down this road again. I have applied and sent out resumes to all these places. Not a lot of call backs, if any. I think I am losing hope. I want to have a career where I can make money to support myself and do the things I want to do but to also support or at least have fun with my girl without worrying about money. If I could just win the lottery or have someone just give me some money that would be great. I feel like I am not man enough to be with D just because of my current situation. She deserves a lot and I want to provide that for her...but I do not know how...blah Please let me find a good paying job and have this burden lifted from my shoulders....

Monday, July 23, 2007

Well Hell.....and other Junk

Well I finally had a talk with my boss. We talked about my last day and how far they can afford to keep me on. So my last day for anyone who is ready this is Aug 10th. Which is a Friday. I have a good 2 weeks or so left for me to collect money for work, and finally turn in on those coins that I have been organizing and selling all those phones that I have in my drawer. Why? Well so that I can have some money coming in for the month of August. I have been sending out resumes for positions that I am suited for. Location wise, I was sending most of them out to the OC area. I wanted to move down there and room with Marc and also to be closer to my gf. But after a talk with the lady last night we decided or she helped me get some perspective, that I should look for something closer to my home first. I am staying at home so I don't have to pay rent. This way, I can save enough money to get a place out there. Or at least wait until Marc get his new place. Then maybe find a good job out there, save some money and move to my own place. But this is still a long ways away. I created a budget for myself but I haven't used it yet. I had some loose ends to tie up first. I actually still just have 1 more lose end and then I can finally start budgeting myself. Too bad the job is ending and I wont have money to budget. This is where the sending in of cell phones and the turning in of my coinage comes to play. I'll have some money to kick around for the latter parts of Aug and maybe the begining of Sept.

On a lighter side, this weekend was crazy fun. Sat I woke up early and went to visit my girl at her recycling gig. She is helping the enviroment while helping her non profit. Thats hella cool. Also, it allowed me to finally get rid of a monitor that my mom wanted to get rid of for a while. Once I got there I dropped off the monitor and was waiting for her to get done. The original plan was to pick her up, go have lunch with her friends and then go to Irvine to get the room. Well, it turned out she had to stay and help. She called off the lunch and I, not having a place to go, decided to stay and help her out. I was moving monitors and computers just like I used to do at LMU. That was fun. Who knew moving computers would be so enjoyable. But it was. I kicked it with my girl and met her brother and her "boyz." But wait..there's more. There was a line of cars waiting to drop off some equipment so I was trying to get D to come with me because she was filling out the clients info. Well she was standing there with an older couple. I left to go unload the truck and when I came back she quietly told me that those were her parents. So, calming myself down, she moved to them so that she can introduce them to me. I took off my sunglasses and shook both of their hands. I stayed by them for a little bit and they were talking. I wasn't sure what I was supposed to do. They left and we said our good byes. So this was number 1 meeting with parents..haha

I rented a hotel room for Sat night just because I didn't want to drive home at night so late. Last time I did that I was falling asleep. After the drive, her and I went to go check into the hotel. It was pretty cool. A nice king size bed with free cookies. We chilled and talked and rested. It was very enjoyable. After that we had to get ready to go out because Marc and Flo had a dinner for their birthday in Santa Monica. The dinner was fun. I had a great time. She met most of my friends that evening. It was an enjoyable experience especially since D was with me. I usually go by myself to these things, but going with someone is WAAAAAYYY better!! haha After dinner we headed back to the hotel where we crashed for the night.

Sunday it felt good waking up next to her. Someone to kick you in the butt to wake you up! haha j/k. But it was nice. I guess I fell back to sleep because the last thing I remember was her getting out of bed going to the bathroom. When I woke up She was sitting up watching tv, with a Starbucks coffee in her hand. I was like.."WTF!!" to myself. How long have I been out!! haha But it was hella nice. She bought me a cup of coffee too. How many guys can say that their girl got up, and went and brought back coffee for herself and for her guy. I have always been an advocate for the little things..and let me tell you. This was very significant to me. Since no one has ever done something like that for me. I think I like her even more now!!

Once the blood was flowing we got packed and headed out. We were going to the OC Fair. We met up with my sister and her family and gave them the tickets that D bought. Man she is hella cool. After that we went to visit her friend because he had gotten us some ride tickets. Once we got there we ate lunch and ran into my sister. We kicked it with her for a while, then we ventured off on our own. We took some cute Black and white photos from a photobooth. Then we walked around and met up with marc and flo. We chilled with them for the rest of the day. It was fun. Especially since I wasn't alone. It is a good feeling to go to a park or public place with someone you truly care about. And I truly care about D. She means the world to me. I really can't wait to bring her into the fold, that is my life!

After the fair we sat in my car and talked. We took pictures and talked some more. Then I slowly made my way to her place. Kissed her good night and watched her walk to her house. I miss her. And I miss her more since we spent a whole weekend together. Imaging if we some how went on vacation and spent more than 5 days with each other. That would be killer. To spend as much time as we did, then go back to not seeing them for a few days and seeing them on the weekend. But as long as I get to see her its all good. I can honestly say she is the one and I could totally see myself spending the rest of my life with her...but we shall see. We'll be taking it slow.

As for today, Its monday. I updated my myspace with pics. Yes I am showing her off!! So sue me!! Other than that, it was sending out resumes one after another. Well my parents do not know of what has transpired last week in regards to my job. Today will be the first time I will see them, so wish me luck. I will be telling them tonight!! Scared!!

Thursday, July 19, 2007

What a Week and its not Friday yet!!

So where do I begin. It is not even Friday and this week has been hella hectic. Monday was ok, just your average typical day. Tues was going well also. Thought, "Yup just another day here at work." Boy was I in for a surprise. That afternoon, the boss comes into my office. Asks if we could talk. I said sure, so he goes and closes the door. I am thinking..wtf is going on. So he sits down and tells me why he opened this position in the first place. He said that he calculated a lot of administrative / project tasks that were going to be piling up at the office. So he hires me to take care of these items. However, the tasks / items never come and I usually just sit at my desk, field 1 phone call a day and reply to some emails that come my way. Other than that, I was just sitting on my butt doing nothing. The boss realizes this said that the he has realized that his estimation of the work flow was miscalculated and that in essence he was paying me to do nothing. In that sense he was correct. So he kindly let me know that he would be releasing me from my position. There has not been a set date yet, but I am assuming the date will come sooner than later. He let me know that I was free to use the computer to send out resumes and look for jobs. So that is what I have been doing this week.

Wed after applying to several jobs online, I decided that I really needed a break from this madness that was going on in my head. So I asked the boss if I could go visit my recruiter and take a half day. He said yes, so I drove down to Irvine. There I met up with marc and flo and had some jamba juice with them. I kicked it with them for a little bit, but my main purpose for my trip was to visit the girl I am talking to. So I know the address of her work, mapquested it from Marc's computer and began my journey. Well, the map was wrong, I got lost, and frustrated and finally found my bearings after a few mins. Well I got there in time before she left for home. I went to one window and asked for the Student accounts area. The lady pointed me in the direction but before I left to go see her, who should pop out of some office and call my name? No other than the girl I was talking to. She asked me what I was doing here. Told her I was here to surprise her..but I guess that didn't work since she saw me! haha. Next time I'll know where to go!! From there, I met one of her best friends, then she showed me around her work area where I was met by a majority of her friends. COOL!! Surprise her and meet almost all of her friends. Killed 5 birds with one Visit!! YAY!! She walked me around her campus and showed me her life inside of work.

Once she got out of work, we drove our cars to her place to drop off her car and we just cruised down her area. We were supposed to meet up with Marc and Flo after he got off of work so we had some time to chill. She directed me to a nice park that had a pond and ducks swimming about. We found a graffiti ed rock and I sat down followed by her. We just stayed there, talking, holding her with my arms. I treasured that moment. Then we had to stand up, mainly myself because that rock made my butt numb!! haha So as we were standing together my arms wrapped around her body, I whispered in her ear, will you be my girl friend. She thought for a few seconds and said Ok. So I hope she meant yes!! haha So ya, It is official we are now a couple! YAY!! After some quick kisses and hugs, we went back to the car and headed to the restaurant to meet up with Flo and Marc. When we got there they hit it off really well. We were talking and laughing. I believe it was good times for all. After dinner we parted ways and my girl and I just parked our car and talked for a while. Man I love being with her. She makes me happy. After I drove her to her car, I followed her home and watched her go into the house. From there, I drove home. I felt ok on the way home, but I guess I was kind of tired so I found myself kind of dozing off while on the freeway. Thank goodness I got home safely. Next time, I will be drinking an energy drink.

On the way home, my friend called me. She told me her dad had passed away. I hope I was there for her when she needed me. I knew her father. He was a good man with a good heart. He will be missed greatly.

So that is what has happened this week all before Friday. Today, I spent the day sending out emails with my resumes to potential employers. So hopefully they will call back. Actually one person has called back but we are playing phone tag. She said she has a position in Purchasing and Product Management. So thats good. Hopefully we can hook up today. As for lunch, we are waiting to go out. We just need the prospective developer to leave...and there she goes!! hehe Going to lunch!!

Ok well I am back from lunch. Looks like D, thats my girl!!, took the rest of the day off to study. Good luck hun!!



As for me, I guess I better start looking for some more jobs. Man I need to get a new job. I guess my end of days is coming sooner than expected.

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

Another day......

So today is Tues and it is just another day. haha. The weekend well that was kind of crazy. The viewing for my uncle was Friday and we got to see a lot of relatives we usually dont get to see. Sat was the funeral. I was one of his pall bearers and I also read one of the readings. From what I saw, there wasn't a lot of crying. The Priest actually gave a good sermon. He asked us what road we were on and where we are going in this life. Do we take the time out to be negative and yell at our neighbors or do we take the higher road and walk alongside our enemies? It was really good. The priest was a good friend of my uncle's so after we processed out of the chapel, he gave my uncle a final blessing and a good bye. This is where the priest became teary eyed and was unable to speak. He was giving the crucifix that was on the coffin to my aunt and he started to cry. Thus in turn made those around him start to cry. I couldn't bare to see this so I put my head down. All you could hear was the sniffling of those crying. Don't get me wrong, I am not being insensitive. I did get teary eyed. I just had to be strong for all those around me. After the funeral, there was a reception at a Chinese buffet. We attended that and ate and laughed and chilled with our relatives. Sunday we had another get together. This time at my sister's house. Again those relatives we saw this weekend showed up that day. We had more food, we played mah joung and Poker. Something my uncle would love to do. My uncle was dealing with Parkinsons Disease but that never stopped him from going about his day. There was this one time where we all played poker and he joined us. With the disease he usually shakes but this day while playing, he was fine. Those were the good old days.

My relationship with the girl I am seeing is getting better, not that it was bad..so wrong choice of words. It is progressing nicely..She is so caring and loving and wants to spend time with me..haha Who would have guessed I would find a girl that would want to spend time with me! But its all good because I want to spend time with her. She is everything. Everything that you could ever want in a girl. So yah, we are going to go Kick it this Sat. Going to have lunch with her friend, (meeting 1 of her friends scarry) but we are going to dinner for Marc and Flo's bday so she may be scared too. But I'll protect her!! and make her feel like she is one of the friends..since she will be!! haha

Monday, July 16, 2007

-Ewok

Thursday, July 12, 2007

Surf Naked

Well I am here till about 6pm today making up an hour that I didn't work yesterday as I took it off to visit my very beautiful female friend. Any who, I was perusing the net for a rash guard or something so that I can wear it when I go swimming. Its pretty cool. This way I can go swimming without the fear of getting sunburn. Any way, I got two of these items plus a cool trucker hat that says, SURF NAKED!! though I do not know how to surf, it just felt right you know?

In regards to that very beautiful female friend, I am liking her every time I see her and talk with her. I don't want to alarm anyone, but she could be the one..haha But that is for us to see in the future. I don't want to rush into things. So wish me luck. Ok 20 mins left. Going to surf naked on the web!! ONE!!

Amazing

Ok Well I guess I will post again. Like it is a chore for me to post a blog. I love posting it is just a matter of overcoming my laziness. So, what has been going on? Well let me break it down:

This Friday is the viewing for my godfather/uncle. Attending: Yes.

This Sat is the actual funeral for my godfather/uncle. Attending: Yes.

This Sun is a family gathering at my sister's house for those who flew in for the wedding. Attending: Yes.

So my weekend is kind of full. Family stuff. You know its weird that certain events bring families closer together or at least in the same house. Don't get me wrong, my family and extended family are all well family. There is no feuding or anyone not liking another person. It is just weird to see all of my family when certain days come. I.E. Holidays and unfortunately a funeral. But it will be nice to see the family again, even under the circumstances. So we'll see how it goes.

The date on last Sat that went into the early mornings of Sun went fairly well. We had a 3rd date this past Wed. I drove to her place and we went to go see Harry Potter. For the life of me I do not understand what the hell just happened in that movie. So if someone can give me some cliff notes that would be great. In regards my date, OMFGoodness. hehe. She takes my breathe away. I have fallen for girls in the past, but this one is hella different. I see it in her eyes and the way her and I tend to gravitate to each other. I am falling hard for this one. I know I said I have to take it one day at a time and take it slow, but man, I just want to be with her everyday. We talk in some form or another every day. I just can not get enough of her. Any ways, last night was good. Dinner in my car, then a movie then a drive through Newport beach and hung out and talked. We always have a good time when we talk. We went to Luccille's for dinner thinking it was going to be a quick in and out meal. Nope. The place was packed!! So we decided to order to go. We waited and got our food. The movie started at 940pm and we got our food at about 840 maybe? With no places to eat, we drove to the AMC parking lot, parked, and just ate in the car. It is things like this that make me happy. Small, intimate, yet no room for eating food, no one could ask for a better dinner! Ok this morning it may have been the 2 hours of sleep that I received or the fact that I can not stop thinking about this girl. Well this morning I was overly happy and energetic. Not even slow drivers or people cutting me off got me down. I was happy as a clam as they say. I would just look at the passenger seat of my car and just smile or bust out laughing. She makes me happy. And I hope that I make her happy also.


HAPPY NAKED THURSDAY!!! WOOHOO!! Though there are no nude people around, that is ok. we can just image!! haha

Monday, July 9, 2007

Another Monday

Well I should have written this earlier but I was busy trying to edit text from a client's website. The back end changes are done, but I guess I do not have access to the ftp site for the website itself. So I am waiting for some answers from the client and our developer. So that took up some of my morning, plus I left kind of early to pick up my 2 nephews from camp. That middle nephew has a attitude like me when I was little. He was pouting again because I picked him up early and didn't take them to lunch. Maybe one day I'll surprise them and take them to lunch. I see a lot of me in him..its hella crazy.

The weekend was ok. If you read the last entry you know that my godfather/uncle passed away last Thursday. Well we, my family, went to my aunt's house on Friday to visit her. She is doing well but I guess she is in denial right now. She said she is mad at him for leaving because they agreed to not leave each other or if they did, they would go together. So to get back at him, she is going to do things that he wanted to do but never got a chance to do it. I think it is sweet but kind of sad at the same time. I really hope she can cope with this. She has a lot of family and friends that can support her. One of my aunts and a grandmother came down from Oregon on Friday to be with her. Also my aunt from Virginia is flying down here Thursday. It looks like there will be a funeral service this Sat. But his body may not be there. He passed away on the way to the hospital or right at the emergency room. However, since he wasn't at the hospital at the time he felt ill, the coroner has to do an autopsy before the body is released. Just like in CSI. We shall see then.

On Sat was my big date. We had a good time or some I was told. I took her to the Irvine spectrum for a movie, dinner and some laughs. It turned out to be a good date. I think I am falling for her hard core now, but again, I don't want to let her know since I don't want to scare her off. But taking this slow is crazy too. Meeting her in person just completed what I have known for a while after talking to her. She is hella cool and I really wouldn't mind staying with her for a long ass time. Again, time will tell. One reason why I know I am falling for her hard core, I keep thinking about her all the time and want to be with her. AHH!! It is mind consuming!! haha But in a good way.

Sunday, I didnt get home till about 5am from the date on Sat. Woke up at 9, went to go visit my friend at her store. Had her do some reike on my for my shoulders. Then went home and went swimming with my nephews. They left early around 5pm or so. After they left, I laid down on my nice bed and watched tv. I talked to the girl I am talking to, for a little bit before she had to go and drive. After we talked, I woke up at 3:30am...so I completely missed the afternoon. I guess I was really tired.haha. But all in all, the lack of sleep or the tiredness that I feel was worth it and I would do it again in a heartbeat.

That was my weekend. I know there is more to say about other things but right now, I can not for the life of me focus on typing any more. Maybe tomorrow I'll post more.

Friday, July 6, 2007

Friday

Well the big day for me is tomorrow, meeting the girl that I have been talking to for a while now. I am not nervous, I just hope that I can bring the good stuff.hah whatever that means. We have been talking for about 2-3 weeks now, and in that time we have learned a lot about each other. I feel that with all this talking it makes us comfortable when we meet. So when we meet it will just be a formality. I can now have a real face to go with that beautiful voice of hers.

Today is not all about getting things ready for the big date..haha. It has been somewhat over shadowed by the fact that I found out my god father passed away. I am not sure when, but I got a call from my sister this morning tell me that he passed away. It is kind of odd, since I saw him this Sat at my aunt's house. I shook his hand and told him how good he looked. He had Parkinson's disease but on Sat he was shaking like he normally was. Hence the, "you look good" statement. I can always remember the time when our birthdays would come up. Uncle Terry, my godfather/uncle, my cousin Chris and I had birthdays close together in Jan. So the whole family would come over to our house and we would have 3 separate cakes for each of us. Those were back in the days when I was younger. Now we are so dang busy that it is hard for us to see each other anymore. Last Sat was the first time I had seen him since Christmas. And my cousin Chris, who is out in the gulf somewhere, i havent seen him since 2 summers ago. It is hard for me to believe that he has passed away. Is that a bad thing? If i sit back and reminisce about our lives it is only when I was a younger boy that I remember seeing all my family together. They had this dog named baby, and every summer, baby, the dog, would have a birthday party and invite all the family and our dogs. It was a dog party!! haha they had steak and cake. It was fun times. When I was over at school, they lived about 15 to 20 mins away and they asked me to visit or stop by. You, I never did stop by. I wish I had. So today I will be silent and mourn and try and find other memories of my uncle. RIP Uncle Terry!!!

Tuesday, July 3, 2007

New Perspective Tat

This will be similar to the tattoo that I want to get on my left arm, below my name in chinese.

It is kind of like the one of the left, but the points on each of the cross will be more of a diamond shape. Just a basic drawing will do. So that will be after the summer since you cant go swimming with a fresh or new tat. yay!!

Happy 4th....

Happy forth of July everyone, even though today is only the 3rd. haha. I really dont ever remember the 4th of July landing on the weekday. And you know why? I think it was because when I was in school, we would have summers off so all the days just ran into each other. Now that I am working, I am very conscious of my days off. Isnt that sad though? You work so hard yet you look forward to the weekend or the holidays that we get off. I guess that is because I am at a job that is a job. Not unlike a job where you really love what you are doing. Does that make sense? I think it make sense to me but I dont know any more. Ok I'm blabbering. I really don't have a lot to say.
I am still talking to that girl mentioned in the past posts. We are hitting it off well over the phone. She is on vacation now in Hawaii. Lucky her. She comes back this Thurs and I am taking her out on a date this Sat. I am not nervous, but the more I think about it, the more I get nervous. I know I shouldn't since we have been talking for a while. It feels, at least for me, that we are old friends reuniting again. I guess talking on the phone everyday or so makes one feel comfortable around one another. There is no, "what should I say" dialogs running through my head. That in itself is comforting. We can just sit and be with each other not saying a word. So that should be fun. Wish me luck.

Back to the 4th. Which is tomorrow and I have the day off. Stupid global warming. I swear the summers are getting hotter and hotter. Last year...or a year before that, it was so hot, 113 in the valley to be exact that it turned my normal pool, which is always cold no matter how hot it is, into a Caribbean sea. For those who dont know, my pool is like the artic. It is a black bottom pool which is supposed to absorb the heat and warm the pool but no matter how hot it gets, usually the top layer is warm while the bottom end is really cold. You can only last a few mins in the pool it is so cold. But on this faithful day, when the temp reached 113, the whole pool was warm. I would say about 74 degrees or something like that. Warm enough to feel like you could stay in the pool all day. Oh, my nephews and I did just that. So as I was damning global warming, this whole week we will see triple digit temps. And tomorrow is supposed to be 102 I think. may not warm the pool that much, but I am going to be pool side all day, or at least try too!! YAY!!

On a side note: I was driving down the street taking my mom to work, when we see this ambulance parked on the opposing side of the road. I slowed down since I had the red light, and I see this car, Cadillac I think, which hopped the curb, went through a brick and wrought Iron fence and placed its happy ass in someone's yard. I was like WTF!! that is some crazy shit. Interesting. That is all I have to say about that!! haha

Ok well the boss is not here today, so we may leave kind of early and go see TRANSFORMERS, more than meets the eye!!! WOHOO! it opens today!!! I can't wait to see it. even if it sucks, I dont care. I grew up watching these cartoons and maybe just maybe, my nephews will understand what we watched at their age was cool!! haha

I think that is it for now. I do not have anything else to say. take care and remember, do not hold a lit firecracker in your hands unless you want to lose them!! haha