Randomness

This entry is going to be a lot of randomness since I can not really focus on one thing at once today.

I have been really tired  these past few days. I would go to bed around 11pm and wake up at 5am to get ready for work. Throughout the night I would use the restroom since I drink more than a gallon of water a day and my body wants to get rid of it at night. I think my body is nocturnal. But this is really affecting me when I am at work. I get to work and I will start to get tired and fall asleep. On top of that, I sit within eyesight of the HR person. So already caught me using my cell phone during work. She had to ask my boss to remind me that "using personal cell phones during work is prohibited." Crap..oh well. My regular cup of coffee is not doing the trick. Maybe I should stop drinking at night, but now that it has gotten hot I find myself drinking more water! blah. I will have to find something to change because I really want to sleep and wake up refreshed like most people do.

For the past few months I have been trying to save up money for our trip to HI. Right now I have enough to cover the hotel room for the several days that we will be there. When I mention we, I mean my girl and I. I am not making as much as I would like to make, but working over time has helped out a bit. I know this stress is due to my habit of spending money on things I do not really need but want. I.E. my growing watch collection that I will post later. I always find a way to put some money aside for the trip, get a new watch, and pay my bills. Then something always comes up where I have to pull money from my savings account, i.e. trip account, and use that money to pay off other things. I really need to stop buying things. I just can not help it. But hopefully I can save enough since the  trip is coming up in Sept. I know for this coming paycheck I have a good few hours of over time that I have clocked. Maybe this will help in my savings. I also send this money to my online account where I do not see the money until I really need it. This way I don't see it and while it is in this account the money is gaining interest.

I am feeling some pressure to hurry up and get engaged and get married. I want to but for financial reasons as stated above, I cant do it. From previous run ins with the money police I had to start over and start saving. I find it hard for me to do. Please see above paragraph for reasons why. I love her and want to marry her, but I want to get settled in. I still am at home and to move out is not an option. Maybe after I come back from the HI trip. I just need to win the lottery. I want to live comfortably and not have to worry where my money will go and to stop living from paycheck to paycheck. It is very frustrating. Sometimes this is all I can think about. This could a reason why I can not sleep. I do not know. All I know is that I have a goal or two or three that I want to get to but my inabilities to save are hindering my path. I need help.

As for the hole in my pocket, my watch collection has grown to include over 15 watches. That is impressive. This list should include ones that I have had for a long time but I have lost them in the madness that I call my room. I have them displayed on my dresser, hanging on a make shift wire shelf. I will post pictures of this later in another entry. As for my other passion(s) I have not really purchased any real tech or gadgets lately. What is wrong with me? I think I just switched focus from gadgets to watches. Every day I surf through my favorite gadget sites but nothing really comes out at me as something that I need or want. I am usually a first generation type of person, i.e. waiting in line for the Storm on its release day or paying $700 for a Moto Razor unlocked phone just to have it before Motorola actually released it to a carrier on US soil. I enjoyed a good 3 months of individuality with the razor. Of course this did not last because within those 3 months I had already moved on to about 1 or 2 more new phones. That is just who I am. I can not settle down with one item. Or at least that is how it was. My search is about finding that one item which will fulfill the different aspects of my life. For example, I have been using the bb curve for a good 4+ months. I am wanting to switch back to the Storm just because it is somewhat "newish" As for my watch, Ive been wearing my Seiko Divers watch, but there is another one that is coming to replace this one. It is the Seiko Black Monster. It is another divers watch. But these are usually my constant items. If they change they change. But I hope they will not change and I can stop obsessing over these items. I literally had an internal debate on which watch I should wear all the time. My mindset is I want that one watch to rule them all. I was torn between 2 watches. Even after asking my girl which one she liked I still had this debate with myself. I sat on my bed with both watches in my hand for a good 20+ mins. I finally decided on the Seiko watch. And I have been wearing it ever since. Since my watch fetish and phone fetish seems to have dwindled down, I might focus on saving money and make it my new obsession. Who knows what will happen.